Farewell - Perpisahan

I'm a very sensitive person. I get sentimental easily. Easily feel bad for people. BUT I never really show it to avoid being dramatic. Trust me, I am a crybaby. 

Maybe it's because I only have lived for over 20 years in this world and I'm still learning to let go and accepting fate. I used to get attached easily but learned to overcome that after uni. If it's meant to be, then it'll mean to be. Semuanya atas kehendakNya. 

I had gone through a few farewells and it's still sad each time. Remembering how close we can get to a used-to-be-stranger and share all stories but then have to part ways while keeping all the memories with us. Farewell is good, it taught us growth, treasure the present moments-appreciate while they are still here and all. 

Trust me, I hate farewells but I also appreciate the concept of parting ways - we don't belong anywhere yet people make us feel belonged while it lasts and I tend to appreciate the people more when we part ways. We can't stay in one phase forever, it's either people change or you change. 

I recently have ended my apprenticeship and had to be the first to say goodbye to everyone. It was very very sad. I cried 2 weeks earlier in my bedroom, thinking that I'll be leaving such great colleagues and good people there. Was preparing my farewell speech but didn't get to say it out loud because I was too 'sebak' but no worries, I managed to text everyone on how thankful I am for them. Alhamdulillah, this apprenticeship had taught me a lot - even helped me in developing my personality. 

Will forever be grateful, dan terhutang budi dengan orang-orang di situ. I'll pray for the best for every single one of them in that department. Terima kasih sebab jadi orang-orang yang baik, yang sabar, yang banyak membantu. 

I know this is not a goodbye. We'll meet again one day inshaAllah. 

OVERCONSUMPTION. OVERCONSUMPTION. OVERCONSUMPTION.

 The influences in consumerism is insane nowadays! 

Was scrolling on a 'clock' app yesterday, found a video of person using a nokia button phone, attached beg kuning on it too. At that moment, I realized that enough is enough. 

I can't enjoy this app like back then. It's full of affiliate content these days. 

People keep buying things they don't need. And for what reason? Because everyone else have it? Because it's trending? 

I understand if it's a necessity but-

buying an extra stuff just because it's cute while u just bought the same thing last month but in different color is just insane. 

Trust me, it's a waste of money and a waste of space. 

(The intention of this post is purely as a reminder to me. A victim of consumerism as well. I can't look at any cute items anymore...I must stand on what I posted. I must learn to buy less. I must use things until it breaks. Unless.......if it's really cute..........but again, I must be strong!!)